Haze

Some fresh emotions
Some vanished sentiments
Everyday, connected to yesterday
And yet unaware of the past day
Vast emptiness, silent chambers
In the world of my empty thoughts
Where is what I felt the previous day?
Where is my fear, my grief?
Why am I happy today?
And if I'm meant to be cheerful
Why melancholy existed yesterday?

Am I too full, or am I bare?
Am I important, or just a spare?
Privately endeavouring to be someone
unknown, but well-known just to The One
Am I accepted, or rejected?
Is my philosophy real?
Have I yet started the preparation
Or am I still miles away from the reception?
Do I think right, or do I even think?
Am I involved in the fight
Or am I lost in the blink of an eye?
Do i exist anywhere...in this nowhere?
Will I be lead to the 'final somewhere'?
And when the hour arrives
(As it is said and meant to be)
Will I feel a rush? or will I be numb?
Will I be running to save someone?
Or will I just render my everything
To One and Eternal YOU?
Or would You give me the power
To do the random somethings?
Is my mind clear and ready?
Or am I strayed in the midst of thoughts?
Am I guided...or am I off-track?
Am I there where You're watching?
Or is my soul just a dark, unwanted spot
In this vast valley of Yours?
Do I exist in Your battle? 
Somewhere, perhaps just in the corner?
Or am I too weak for survival?
And too disgraceful for the honour?
Will I end up as Yours?
Or will be thrown with cult
That I abhorred all along
Because I loved You, and it wasn't a fault
But I never praised, I never thanked
I never realized, how much I cared
Did I even care, or was it just a haze?
I'm deviated, lost, belonging nowhere!
Guide me, where is Your light?
Don't show the path, just drag me!
I want to be there, although I ain't worthy
I'm useless, but You can take me in your hood
You can make me someone, anyone You want
I can be somewhere there, just if You want.

This Game

Life is like Sonic game....you keep running all your life, crushing obstacles, jumping high to fulfill the needs and gather simple joys, fighting/ignoring enemies, finding your way out of mysteries....just to make it till the end. 

Sometimes you have Sez stcking by ur side...but even Sez cant be there all along, there have to be some lone times. No matter what, until u survive...the game still goes on....

Like Stars...

It takes a lot of time for a newborn star's brightness to reach the earth, but the light sure touches the surface some day....
No matter how much the distance be, no matter how long it takes to reach, and no matter how little the star's brightness be in the universe...but it still IS!!

And when we count the stars, we count them all.

And make a little extra effort to notice the not-so-bright ones.

Freedom

As much freedom of expression as people have, you have freedom of reception.

They think what they can, they say what they should; 

You may hear what you can but believe only what you should!

Play Pro!

When you step up to do something, pretend like you're a professional at it even though you're doin' it for the first time. Chances are you'll end up becoming one! And even if you fail, don't be hesitant...cuz even experts make mistakes..!

Reality Check

It took me 20 years of my life to realize what a fool I've been, and then.........I threw all my realizations away and allowed people to fool me around. And by 21, I realized that at some stage, every single person is going to hurt me badly...and I'm going to do the same to every single person in my life...

So I closed my eyes, and flung my heart up to the skies
God reached out to catch it and promised me to keep it
Said He'd be mine forever and never let my heart suffer
If I trusted Him alone and expected only from Him alone...

And I don't suffer anymore....I don't get hurt, I never fall apart.
And I try to refrain from hurting people, but I'm still pretty much of a loser at it...

Magnify not your fears

When you discover your fears & shortcomings, acknowledge them. 

Then go ahead and conquer them! 

Your fears and shortcomings can NEVER be greater than Allah!

In the midst...

There is a narrow road between the dark and the dawn
Between love and hate; peace and desperation
Neither do I turn right, nor do I incline towards the left
There's no Moon here, no Sun; it's neither Hell nor Heaven

The Real Us...

"The weather always changes, the climate changes depending on weather, but nothing ever changes the place. Just like inside us, our current tendencies, if continuous, may change our interests, but almost nothing ever changes who we are." 

~ My li'l bro

A Girl I Know...

I met her when she was 16. She used to be occupied with her schoolwork, routine chores and very limited circle of friends. Simple, innocent, pious, humble, honest, diligent, and...talkative. She carried a butcher's knife with her at all times. Whenever she'd sense an opportunity, she'd hand it over to the person and gallantly be their scapegoat. That little schoolgirl with her 'My Sweet Friends & Bitter Foes' stories, endless presentations, tiring chores, and her beloved nephew...she had a fully packed schedule. And somehow still managed to give plenty of time to everyone. God knows how.

Time passed and nature decided it was about time she should blossom. She was still young. Little did she know she was just a fresh bud awaiting her springtime. And ofcourse, blossoming wasn't as easy and painless as it appeared. The more beautiful and intricate the flower, the longer and painful the blooming phase.

As soon as her inner petals caught the first glimpse of sunshine, they leaped out and strived to fade in with the light forever. A rather bold step it was, but her core was too feeble to stop what seemed a rather natural phenomenon. So she swayed with the breeze and let the happenings happen. She noticed there were many others of her kind, perhaps more radiant than her. She strung herself along with them; she built her world around them. They were her joy, her grief, her life, her dream and she wanted to spend forever this way.

But then, suddenly - or perhaps unexpectedly- the strings started breaking lose, people changed, goals diverged, feelings started to fade; distance and loneliness overshadowed her entire world.
There she was...all alone...falling apart...bit by bit...feeling frozen, broken, twisted, forsaken, gloomy and everything she could've dreaded.
She collapsed, fought back, relapsed, rebuffed and it kept looping on and on..

Now she was no more a little schoolgirl...she grew up. Her innocence evolved into modesty. She learnt to keep her secrets. And she grasped some negative elements too. Now she was smart, witty, wild, crazy and trustworthy as ever. Her piety went on and off. Many of her traits kept falling in and out. She was growing, rapidly dissolving and evolving; learning and forgetting. She was....phasing.

Life's a mess...she craved a distraction...and something to lean on to..so she could eventually stand up.. so she could rise and shine! She didn't want to surrender...she wasn't supposed to, she wasn't destined to.

She started reaching out..
.sketching, painting, writing, decorating...everything! She hastened. ..she wanted to touch and feel the beauty of everything....everything within her reach, everything her core can feel attached to. Because she....she wanted to find herself, discover her innermost marvel God had locked up and concealed deep within her. She was far far far from all the jasmines and lilies that surrounded her. And somewhere in her heart, she knew it! Though she never really acknowledged.
She struggled, failed; worked harder, achieved; stepped forward, fell harder; gave up, started over and there she is, you can still see her struggling. You can see her smiling away her fears and failures, grinning about her triumph over disasters. She's that kinda girl. Always ready, always handy. Always complainful, yet thankful to Almighty.

I dont know much of her recent self...but I assume that she's a lot more stable and stronger than before. She's silly but much wiser than before. She absorbed the fact that life is going to be hard. Good things will always be wrapped in thorns. People and life will keep pulling her down, she'll have to fight back up. She knows it'll exhaust her and sometimes it's going to be okay to reciprocate or just get succumbed for a while. Or perhaps, Im just wrong...
Its strange how life dragged us apart...or perhaps, somewhere we too were decissively involved in the process. Whatever...maybe.

Well, what I know is...she wasn't falling apart back then, she was opening up. The beauty wasn't really around in what she did, it was within her...and it spilled out beautifying all that she did.
And what she still doesn't know is...she isn't just another Rose or Lavender. This girl, she's a Rhododendron. She's packed with captivating scent that spreads like wild fire. It enchants whoever crosses the path of her life. And whatever she touches, her scent locks up on it forever. She isn't one of those radiant colours, she carries a pure and elegant tone of white colour...like those creamy clouds up there...so pure...
This girl - She's Legendary. She's born for Glory.
And, she hasn't fully bloomed yet. She needs more of her Creator and less of His creation to be there...but she needs them both anyway.

May she find what she's looking for sooner than soon could be.

A Dream

Deep down in the heart, there is a dream of a place..
A place far away from this tyrant-led abyss
A place where people still rise to feel the morning dew
And praise The Creator for His expertly framed masterpiece
Where the only music is of birds chanting every dawn
Welcoming the morning as it sweetly breaks in
Where waves murmur love songs in their deep tones
And the wind plays lullabies for Adam's younger kin
A place where children still run in fields with fearless hearts
Where beauty is modesty and honesty isn't extraordinary
A place where the moon still blissfully smiles
And the sunshine merrily gleams at every tree
A place where a woman's teardrop still shatters hearts
And a child's plea still reaps love and mercy
Where a man's strength, and a man's valour
Still protects the oppressed and helps the needy
A place where they work to earn, and earn to live
Where the night brings contentment and every morning elevates faith
Where people walk without masks and talk without cursing
Where hatred is forbidden and hurting, long forgotten...

A place so calm
So pure
So serene
So true

A place
Where you can still hear God...

~ MB

Evolve..!

Let go off the past, let it go
Stop tryin' so hard to avenge
Set yourself free
And let God play His part
Give life your best
Stay focused on your goals
Concentrate on little things that need to be done
Stop slacking, live hard
Rest when needed
Don't waste time
Pray soulfully
Rejuvenate your beauty
Prioritize tasks
Plan backups
NEVER compromise on values n ethics
Love all, try to overcome hatred
Forgive everyone for everything
Smile often,
Ignore the pain
Give all,
Demand little,
Expect nothing.
Remember there's a kid around and he will learn only what you teach and show.
Give everyone the time they deserve: Family first!
Always remember God.
Evolve into something greater than yourself...!

Patience

Patience builds,
Slowly and unsteadily.
But,
It sure builds.

Keep waiting, keep enduring with your smile =)

If Only...

If only we could be

A little slow to criticize

To taunt, to blame, to rage

To scorn and to hate.

And a little quick to praise

To forgive, to smile, to encourage

To share our bounties & our joys

And show tidbits of our care.

We can weave a lovely fantasy,

Live an enchanting fairytale

But since we keep on living wrong

We end up being a nightmare.

~ MB