A Grief

For those of us who take the dart to the heart with a smile

There's no one who gets to see our melting points

They shut their eyes just like we veil our cries

And everyone pretends nothing's out of order.

In all this pretense of

N o r m a l i s a t i o n

Somewhere inside us

the pieces keep shattering down

While people keep coming around

Giving a little extra pain to shove down.

Pointless arguments

same merciless tones

There's not an inch of empathy

not even a little humanity.

How would have I known

Some grieves are for you to bear alone

Maybe it's not even a legit grief

when you lose someone that only you have known.

With piercing agony

inside our beings

we flash smiles like it's a good holiday

while all we go through is another agonizing day

Shattered souls and aching bodies

Broken hearts with unwritten stories

No proper theme,

not title to give;

what have I just been through?

how could this be so much,

and yet be so 'nothing'?

How could an event,

an interval of life,

longer than 10 weeks

be recorded shorter than a heartbeat?

How can something be forgotten before its even over? 

A loss remains a loss

whether acknowledged or not.

The pain remains intact

despite all the varnish.

And a place in the heart forever remains

Occupied by the same inhabitant.

And time and again

the specks of grief 

shine through the eyes again.

I am grateful you dropped by, even if it was just for a moment...

I don't even know if you're counted; but in my heart, you're permanent.

You both remain loved and unforgotten - within my existence.

Dreams

I drift to sleep every night praying for a miracle, 

I wake up every morn hoping for a marvel; 

Will the change ever come? Will the miracle ever happen...? 

Will the darkness ever fade? Will the stars ever glisten...?

Counting my Blessings

God never made anyone as lucky as me.

 I start to count His blessings...and as soon as I reach SEVEN...i feel overwhelmed with joy...for if He had only blessed me with these seven assets in my life, it would have been enough of His blessings.

But He never stopped...though I never thanked Him enough..

This Game

Life is like Sonic game....you keep running all your life, crushing obstacles, jumping high to fulfill the needs and gather simple joys, fighting/ignoring enemies, finding your way out of mysteries....just to make it till the end. 

Sometimes you have Sez stcking by ur side...but even Sez cant be there all along, there have to be some lone times. No matter what, until u survive...the game still goes on....

Like Stars...

It takes a lot of time for a newborn star's brightness to reach the earth, but the light sure touches the surface some day....
No matter how much the distance be, no matter how long it takes to reach, and no matter how little the star's brightness be in the universe...but it still IS!!

And when we count the stars, we count them all.

And make a little extra effort to notice the not-so-bright ones.

Lessons Learnt

I've learnt three things from my life that Im sure of:

1) Nothing lasts forever.
2) No matter what, life goes on.
3) Life's fair; God knows. And you're too naive if you disagree.

Human Perception

We human beings are too naive to acknowledge all the emotions & situations; we only comprehend what HE opens our senses to...& we never even know whether our lives r on peaks or in pits.We only feel what He makes or lets us feel...& that's never the limit, never the answer!

Don't you sometimes wish you could reach your hand out of the li'l box and grasp a share of something so far away...something you can catch the glimpse of, but never touch...?

The Times

'The good times and the bad times both will pass. It will pass. It will get easier. But the fact that it will get easier does not mean that it doesn’t hurt now. And when people try to minimize your pain they are doing you a disservice. And when you try to minimize your own pain you’re doing yourself a disservice. Don’t do that. The truth is that it hurts because it’s real. It hurts because it mattered. And that’s an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesn’t mean that it won’t end, that it won’t get better. Because it will.' 

~ Anonymous

Play Pro!

When you step up to do something, pretend like you're a professional at it even though you're doin' it for the first time. Chances are you'll end up becoming one! And even if you fail, don't be hesitant...cuz even experts make mistakes..!

Reality Check

It took me 20 years of my life to realize what a fool I've been, and then.........I threw all my realizations away and allowed people to fool me around. And by 21, I realized that at some stage, every single person is going to hurt me badly...and I'm going to do the same to every single person in my life...

So I closed my eyes, and flung my heart up to the skies
God reached out to catch it and promised me to keep it
Said He'd be mine forever and never let my heart suffer
If I trusted Him alone and expected only from Him alone...

And I don't suffer anymore....I don't get hurt, I never fall apart.
And I try to refrain from hurting people, but I'm still pretty much of a loser at it...

The Real Us...

"The weather always changes, the climate changes depending on weather, but nothing ever changes the place. Just like inside us, our current tendencies, if continuous, may change our interests, but almost nothing ever changes who we are." 

~ My li'l bro

Impermanence...

Don't make any human being the center of your world, don't ever completely rely on a human soul...'cuz every other human on this planet is as unpredictable and as helpless as you are...

Seasons change, new buds bloom and old leaves wither, ice melts and clouds rain down...dawns break and night somehow supersedes it all...

Nothing's permanent, you see? Everything's temporary...and so is life...

Allah's Will

Allah does what He intends
And He does whatever is best for His creation...
No matter how unjust or unkind it may seem to you from your angle
It's always the best.
At times you realize later that what He did was indeed the best
At others, you just fail to figure out.
Cuz you just have your limited scope of mind
Your limited thinking capacity
Your very very limited vision
And He...
He and His capabilities are above all that you know or do not know
Because He is above His creation.
Where your capabilities end,
His just begin.
Because...
He is the one who granted you whatever you possess. 

A Dream

Deep down in the heart, there is a dream of a place..
A place far away from this tyrant-led abyss
A place where people still rise to feel the morning dew
And praise The Creator for His expertly framed masterpiece
Where the only music is of birds chanting every dawn
Welcoming the morning as it sweetly breaks in
Where waves murmur love songs in their deep tones
And the wind plays lullabies for Adam's younger kin
A place where children still run in fields with fearless hearts
Where beauty is modesty and honesty isn't extraordinary
A place where the moon still blissfully smiles
And the sunshine merrily gleams at every tree
A place where a woman's teardrop still shatters hearts
And a child's plea still reaps love and mercy
Where a man's strength, and a man's valour
Still protects the oppressed and helps the needy
A place where they work to earn, and earn to live
Where the night brings contentment and every morning elevates faith
Where people walk without masks and talk without cursing
Where hatred is forbidden and hurting, long forgotten...

A place so calm
So pure
So serene
So true

A place
Where you can still hear God...

~ MB

Evolve..!

Let go off the past, let it go
Stop tryin' so hard to avenge
Set yourself free
And let God play His part
Give life your best
Stay focused on your goals
Concentrate on little things that need to be done
Stop slacking, live hard
Rest when needed
Don't waste time
Pray soulfully
Rejuvenate your beauty
Prioritize tasks
Plan backups
NEVER compromise on values n ethics
Love all, try to overcome hatred
Forgive everyone for everything
Smile often,
Ignore the pain
Give all,
Demand little,
Expect nothing.
Remember there's a kid around and he will learn only what you teach and show.
Give everyone the time they deserve: Family first!
Always remember God.
Evolve into something greater than yourself...!

Giving

The only way to get it, is to give it.
Whats 'it'?
Its Love, its Respect, it Care
Its those little gifts you share as a token of remembrance.
Its anything and everything you could ever desire
Anything you ever wished to receive.

The only way to get what you want, is to start giving it.

But what if I'm already giving? And not getting it back anyway?

Don't despair, dear heart.

Cuz if you're not getting back what you're giving, you're definitely getting hidden treasure boxes for Aakhirah! ;)

And there is no blessing greater than that!